Im so absolultley angry at him. Como el me dice a mi dike: si tus intenciones no son casarte conmigo, dejemos esto aqui mismo.
Ya hemos tenido esta conversacion antes, y se lo dije: no tengo intenciones de casarme por ahora, de aqui a 5 anios. Para casarme, la variable economia tiene que estar resuelta.

El tiene que ver como es que yo vivo, voy a irme de donde yo estoy, a pasar trabajo.. con el? Pero que absurdo, ahora es que me falta para superarme, hacer todavia un sinnumero de estudios mas, y sobre todo, los mas importante y mi suenio mas grande y meta mas propuesta: largarme de aqui a hacer una maestria en los paises y/o potencias mas desarrolladas, como inglaterra o EE.UU.

Me molesta la presion psicologica esa de mierda, ya van varias veces que me lo menciona. Como tu propones casarte, de que viviremos? De aqui a un anio, ni dos, ni tres.... Que me deje vivir mis amores tranquilos, yo no quiero ni pensar en el futuro, de aqui a un anio pasan un millon de cosas.

La gente cree que uno vive de amor. But marriage is far more than a romantic arrangement; it has legal and financial ramifications as well.

yei!

I had a Job interview... hooray!!! Im so excited, I did great! I mean, Its not 100% mine ofcourse... And I am demanding a good amount of payment... but even if they dont call me, its ok, Cause it felt nice to just think that there are many oportunities out there for me, and that I wont stay here forever... uff!

Im sooooo pms today!!!
Reason why I was being so completley childish and paraonoical on saturday. Pms drives me crazy sometimes...
Anyways, it was nice seeing my grandma today eating a mango, and making a complete mess out of herself. She would be saying that she saw no sense in going to the beach with my mom and my mom's friends if we, her nieces werent going, shed be saying she wouldnt go with them, bunch of oldies, being a kid herself... jaja, just cute.

I feel a little empty, though. Everything I used to believe in, fought for years, is no longer of importance to me. And Im happy, but different. I would have hated myself a year ago... But you know what, I will just live and forget about "morality". Its so over rated, really. Im so dissapointed, the fight was for nothing, cause its nothing. Regrets? Yeah, I regret not living.

Im so worried about the money, that i have three huge pimples on my face, and in multiple places of my body.... pimples on me are so strange!!!!!!!!
Its just that my economy is terrible, the fuel is so expensive, and everything I am winning goes to my stupid car. Gosh, and the loan for the car, I still owe 12 damn payments... thats one year paying! It was the worse loan in the market, with the highest interest rate, damm it. Thanks to my dad, who just wanted me to get into the first loan that i could find, his excuse was: sweetie, its the same rate everywhere... yeah right, when it comes to making or spending money, I swear Ill never listen to my dad again.
Im so worried because this month is my dad's birthday and father's day, what am I going to do? Im sooooo broke, I cant stop thinking about it! I need another income FAST, or I need to change my job FAST... its being a year, and it feels like im stuck in the same place... i need to grow!
I need urgently someone to offer me a great job oportunity... I simply hope*** so.